A Voice In the Wilderness
by Dr. Loran W, Helm
   
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Chapters:

  1.  Why Don't Men Obey God?
  2.  My Father
  3.  Narrow Escapes From Death
  4.  My Mother
  5.  My Father's Conversion
  6.  God First Speaks
  7.  Tithing Opens The Way
  8.  Childlike Faith
  9.  A Child's Prayer
10.  Parental Discipline
11.  Conversion
12.  First Obedience
13.  Jesus Reveals My Companion
14.  Sanctification
15.  Our First Pastorate
16.  "Come With Me, Son..."
17.  "...And Perfect Will Of God"
18.  Ordination
19.  Baptized With The Holy Spirit
20.  The Calling
21.  Spiritual Burdens
22.  Leaving All
23.  Waiting On God
24.  Home Built By Faith
25.  Warning From A Watchman
26.  The Beginning



	
Loran with his first brother, Richard, within a few months
of the day God spoke to Loran's heart: "YOU BELONG TO
ME. I WILL USE YOU IN MY KINGDOM SOME DAY."
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         6 GOD FIRST SPEAKS

             Three  years  and  three months later,  on  May  6, 1911, my 
        parents  were  married.   Dad was  twenty-one,  Mother  going  on 
        twenty.  They loved each other so much that there was no question 
        in their minds that God had chosen them for one another.
        
             So strong was their desire for a family that they hoped  for 
        a  child  within  one year.  But the first  year  passed  into  a 
        second,  and  then into a third, and they were  still  without  a 
        little  one.   They  began to pray earnestly  for  a  child,  and 
        continued  to  pray into the fourth year of  marriage.   Most  of 
        their  family  gave up hoping, but Mother and  Dad  continued  to 
        trust  and  pray.  In May, 1915, God was pleased to  grant  their 
        heart's cry:  their first child was conceived.
        
               "From  the  time we began to look for Loran," Mother  once 
             told  friends, "it seemed as if we just dreamed and  thought 
             of him all the time.  When Dad left the factory he  couldn't 
             get  home  quickly  enough to see if I was  alright,  for  I 
             suffered  a great deal.  He would say, `Mary as much as  you 
             are suffering, surely this will be a good child.'
        
               "We  began  to anticipate his coming.  I  prayed  for  man 
             child,  a  man  of God.  I didn't pray for  a  preacher:   I 
             prayed  for a man of God.  I gave him back to God before  he 
             was born.  I told God that I would raise my son for the Lord 
             the best I knew."
        
             I  was  born at home on February 3, 1916, with  the  doctor, 
        Grandmother Dickson, and a friend, Aunt Mandy, assisting.  Mother 
        said, "We all sensed something unusual in the room.
        
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Aunt Mandy said that she had never before been in a place like that, and my own mother sensed something out of the ordinary as well. I never told anyone about the Holy Spirit falling on me when Loran was born, until many years later." Not long before his death, Dad told me, "Son, I don't know whether there was any child more welcome in this world than you. We so looked forward to your coming." How can I thank Jesus for the privilege of being placed into the care of parents who loved God and wanted to do His will? I am truly grateful to God and much indebted to Jesus. In this Christian heritage I was taught to love God, to love Jesus, and to put the church first. As soon as they were able, my parents began to teach me to pray. My mother said that I could speak plainly at the age of nine months. While I was strapped in my little high chair, she began to teach me how to fold my hands and pray. I suppose I was praying at the age of one year, bowing my head and trying to say a few words to God. My mother and dad had me praying before I knew what prayer was. Prayer seemed so natural and normal. There was such a deep love of the right, the pure, and the upright in our home. Because of this, I have been shocked whenever I have seen anyone drinking liquor or dressed immodestly. I cannot become accustomed to it. When someone curses, I am shocked; when somebody in a restaurant swears or takes the Lord's name in vain, I find myself turning around to look. I love everyone just alike, but when I see or hear things impure and unholy, I seem to suffer. It hurts my heart. I know that I have so little of Jesus, but when I observe certain iniquitous things, my heart is grieved. I recall once stepping onto an elevator while with a fellow pastor. As the elevator started up, a man began to swear terribly, using vulgar oaths and taking the precious name of our Lord in vain. It had never happened before and probably will never happen again, but, all of a sudden, I began to praise God almost as loudly as this man was cursing. I began
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praising Jesus for His wonderful Self and magnifying the holy Name of God. I tell you, things began to happen in that little elevator. My minister friend wasn't sure what that man was going to do. He looked at me with such animosity. But, you see, my heart had been taught to love and honor God. When such awful cursing began, God simply started praising Himself through me. My mother carried me to church when I was very small. I was in service almost ever time the church doors were open, whether Sunday morning or evening, prayer meeting, or revivals. I grew up not knowing you couldn't go to church. The only time I missed church was when I was quite sick. Even when I became an adult and was in the ministry I missed church only when I would be on special call, when I was waiting on God in prayer, or when waiting for Him to guide me. (And right now, as I tell you this, the Holy Spirit speaks within me, saying: "I will guide you; I will direct you; I will tell you what to do.") My parents taught me that the Bible is the Word of God, the Supreme Voice, the revelation of God's love to us, the Volume of Life, and outside it was desolation. I believed it when they first taught me, and I believe it today. I knew nothing of modernism and liberalism, of doubting God or Jesus, until my second college experience. From my childhood until then, I had known nothing about these dark and sinister liberal views which questioned God's Word and hurled doubts into the minds of young Christians. When I first heard a professor bring his own thoughts, analyzations, and opinions to class, I was deeply hurt. My Mother tells me (only because of Jesus and all to God's glory) that she recognized early that God's hand was upon me. As she was working one day, the lady who lived right across the street came to the door and said, "I wish you could see what I see. It is wonderful." Mother said, "What is it?"
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The woman replied, "You couldn't hear what I am hearing and not know they have been in church." Mother still didn't quite understand: "What do you mean?" she asked. "Why," she answered, "your oldest boy is out back on top of the rabbit pen preaching to the other children." She was quite a woman of the world but she said, "If I ever heard a preacher preach, he is a preaching one. No one could tell me he doesn't know how to go to church." And when Mother went to look, sure enough--there I was on top of the rabbit pen as the neighbor had described. I was trying to preach exactly like I had seen and heard Rev. Gilmore every Sunday. I was but a small lad when God first spoke to me. It was a very serious and sacred event in my life. (And when I tell you that, God whispers within me in the operation of His gifts, "I am with thee.") I do not share this lightly, but with a profound sense of my unworthiness before almighty God, for I do not belong to myself: I am His and I am on this earth to do only His will. It was while I was making a little journey for my mother that I suddenly had this marvelous experience at the fringe of the Kingdom of God. I wish that I were able to tell the wonder of it, but my words are too inadequate. Though men were to speak like angels, they cannot tell about the wonder of the Kingdom of God. From time to time my mother would send me to the farmhouse of Ollie Gilbert to get a quart of milk. The Gilbert home was a little outside the limits of Windsor Village to the north. While on this errand for my mother that beautiful Saturday morning I had a quart Ball jar in the curl of my left arm. Since we were quite poor, I tried to be careful not to drop it. As I was on my way, some 250 feet past the old church, I noticed that the wind was rushing through the leafy branches of the trees, and it looked like they were waving, giving greeting to each other, saying "How do you do?" at morning time.
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I looked at the brilliance of the sun, the brightness of the blue sky, and it all blended into a symphony--all trying to talk, all endeavoring to say something of thanksgiving and gratitude to God. A song sparrow was singing this melody, also, when, to my sudden astonishment, God spoke in my heart and said, "YOU BELONG TO ME: I WILL USE YOU IN MY KINGDOM SOMEDAY."
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