Chapters:
1. Why Don't Men Obey God?
2. My Father
3. Narrow Escapes From Death
4. My Mother
5. My Father's Conversion
6. God First Speaks
7. Tithing Opens The Way
8. Childlike Faith
9. A Child's Prayer
10. Parental Discipline
11. Conversion
12. First Obedience
13. Jesus Reveals My Companion
14. Sanctification
15. Our First Pastorate
16. "Come With Me, Son..."
17. "...And Perfect Will Of God"
18. Ordination
19. Baptized With The Holy Spirit
20. The Calling
21. Spiritual Burdens
22. Leaving All
23. Waiting On God
24. Home Built By Faith
25. Warning From A Watchman
26. The Beginning
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Loran with his first brother, Richard, within a few months
of the day God spoke to Loran's heart: "YOU BELONG TO
ME. I WILL USE YOU IN MY KINGDOM SOME DAY."
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6 GOD FIRST SPEAKS
Three years and three months later, on May 6, 1911, my
parents were married. Dad was twenty-one, Mother going on
twenty. They loved each other so much that there was no question
in their minds that God had chosen them for one another.
So strong was their desire for a family that they hoped for
a child within one year. But the first year passed into a
second, and then into a third, and they were still without a
little one. They began to pray earnestly for a child, and
continued to pray into the fourth year of marriage. Most of
their family gave up hoping, but Mother and Dad continued to
trust and pray. In May, 1915, God was pleased to grant their
heart's cry: their first child was conceived.
"From the time we began to look for Loran," Mother once
told friends, "it seemed as if we just dreamed and thought
of him all the time. When Dad left the factory he couldn't
get home quickly enough to see if I was alright, for I
suffered a great deal. He would say, `Mary as much as you
are suffering, surely this will be a good child.'
"We began to anticipate his coming. I prayed for man
child, a man of God. I didn't pray for a preacher: I
prayed for a man of God. I gave him back to God before he
was born. I told God that I would raise my son for the Lord
the best I knew."
I was born at home on February 3, 1916, with the doctor,
Grandmother Dickson, and a friend, Aunt Mandy, assisting. Mother
said, "We all sensed something unusual in the room.
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Aunt Mandy said that she had never before been in a place like
that, and my own mother sensed something out of the ordinary as
well. I never told anyone about the Holy Spirit falling on me
when Loran was born, until many years later."
Not long before his death, Dad told me, "Son, I don't know
whether there was any child more welcome in this world than you.
We so looked forward to your coming." How can I thank Jesus for
the privilege of being placed into the care of parents who loved
God and wanted to do His will? I am truly grateful to God and
much indebted to Jesus.
In this Christian heritage I was taught to love God, to love
Jesus, and to put the church first. As soon as they were able,
my parents began to teach me to pray. My mother said that I
could speak plainly at the age of nine months. While I was
strapped in my little high chair, she began to teach me how to
fold my hands and pray. I suppose I was praying at the age of
one year, bowing my head and trying to say a few words to God.
My mother and dad had me praying before I knew what prayer was.
Prayer seemed so natural and normal.
There was such a deep love of the right, the pure, and the
upright in our home. Because of this, I have been shocked
whenever I have seen anyone drinking liquor or dressed
immodestly. I cannot become accustomed to it. When someone
curses, I am shocked; when somebody in a restaurant swears or
takes the Lord's name in vain, I find myself turning around to
look. I love everyone just alike, but when I see or hear things
impure and unholy, I seem to suffer. It hurts my heart. I know
that I have so little of Jesus, but when I observe certain
iniquitous things, my heart is grieved.
I recall once stepping onto an elevator while with a fellow
pastor. As the elevator started up, a man began to swear
terribly, using vulgar oaths and taking the precious name of our
Lord in vain. It had never happened before and probably will
never happen again, but, all of a sudden, I began to praise God
almost as loudly as this man was cursing. I began
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praising Jesus for His wonderful Self and magnifying the holy
Name of God.
I tell you, things began to happen in that little elevator.
My minister friend wasn't sure what that man was going to do. He
looked at me with such animosity. But, you see, my heart had
been taught to love and honor God. When such awful cursing
began, God simply started praising Himself through me.
My mother carried me to church when I was very small. I was
in service almost ever time the church doors were open, whether
Sunday morning or evening, prayer meeting, or revivals. I grew
up not knowing you couldn't go to church. The only time I missed
church was when I was quite sick. Even when I became an adult
and was in the ministry I missed church only when I would be on
special call, when I was waiting on God in prayer, or when
waiting for Him to guide me. (And right now, as I tell you this,
the Holy Spirit speaks within me, saying: "I will guide you; I
will direct you; I will tell you what to do.")
My parents taught me that the Bible is the Word of God, the
Supreme Voice, the revelation of God's love to us, the Volume
of Life, and outside it was desolation. I believed it when they
first taught me, and I believe it today. I knew nothing of
modernism and liberalism, of doubting God or Jesus, until my
second college experience. From my childhood until then, I had
known nothing about these dark and sinister liberal views which
questioned God's Word and hurled doubts into the minds of young
Christians. When I first heard a professor bring his own
thoughts, analyzations, and opinions to class, I was deeply hurt.
My Mother tells me (only because of Jesus and all to God's
glory) that she recognized early that God's hand was upon me. As
she was working one day, the lady who lived right across the
street came to the door and said, "I wish you could see what I
see. It is wonderful."
Mother said, "What is it?"
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The woman replied, "You couldn't hear what I am hearing and
not know they have been in church."
Mother still didn't quite understand: "What do you mean?"
she asked.
"Why," she answered, "your oldest boy is out back on top of
the rabbit pen preaching to the other children." She was quite a
woman of the world but she said, "If I ever heard a preacher
preach, he is a preaching one. No one could tell me he doesn't
know how to go to church." And when Mother went to look, sure
enough--there I was on top of the rabbit pen as the neighbor had
described. I was trying to preach exactly like I had seen and
heard Rev. Gilmore every Sunday.
I was but a small lad when God first spoke to me. It was a
very serious and sacred event in my life. (And when I tell you
that, God whispers within me in the operation of His gifts, "I am
with thee.") I do not share this lightly, but with a profound
sense of my unworthiness before almighty God, for I do not belong
to myself: I am His and I am on this earth to do only His will.
It was while I was making a little journey for my mother
that I suddenly had this marvelous experience at the fringe of
the Kingdom of God. I wish that I were able to tell the wonder
of it, but my words are too inadequate. Though men were to speak
like angels, they cannot tell about the wonder of the Kingdom of
God.
From time to time my mother would send me to the farmhouse
of Ollie Gilbert to get a quart of milk. The Gilbert home was a
little outside the limits of Windsor Village to the north. While
on this errand for my mother that beautiful Saturday morning I
had a quart Ball jar in the curl of my left arm. Since we were
quite poor, I tried to be careful not to drop it.
As I was on my way, some 250 feet past the old church, I
noticed that the wind was rushing through the leafy branches of
the trees, and it looked like they were waving, giving greeting
to each other, saying "How do you do?" at morning time.
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I looked at the brilliance of the sun, the brightness of the
blue sky, and it all blended into a symphony--all trying to talk,
all endeavoring to say something of thanksgiving and gratitude to
God. A song sparrow was singing this melody, also, when, to my
sudden astonishment, God spoke in my heart and said, "YOU
BELONG TO ME: I WILL USE YOU IN MY KINGDOM SOMEDAY."
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